Dear Selina

LOL. It's damn obvious lah. MIRACLE -----> APPLE

shall explain why is this so amazing first. After we graduated, ive heard nth abt apple, and found out that he deleted his fb recently. so i was thinking, perhaps it's the end. i wont be able to see him anymore! i was prepared to accept the fact that he's gone! just like that. so to see him, it's a MIRACLE. and this morning, rachelky tweeted me that she saw bobo. so i replied, i'd be more interested if she saw someone else. ( obviously not in this tone lah!)

Was meeting Chelsie and Zhiying at tamp to get presents for jiaming (joyce). As usual, i was the last to reach ( i do feel guilty for being late ><). But today, i decided that i shouldnt be sorry, coz i saw apple =P (sorry friends! =P)

When i finally reached tamp, chelsie called me when i was still in the train. The FIRST thing i heard was, " APPLE IS IN FRONT OF US!!!"

CAN YOU FEEL HOW OMG I WAS?!

Then i heard screamings in the background (chelsie+zhiying). chlesie and zhiying then followed him i guess, and just nice he was walking to the train station! So chelsie told me to walk in the direction of where apple was i.e. bus interchange, and to keep a look out of someone wearing orange orientation shirt. so i walked out of the station frantically, looking out for someone in orange. then, as i was near the entrance of the station (beside the dbs atm/guardian), i saw 3 bengs. Not exactly bengs, but i saw one with red hair. then i thought i caught a glimpse of orange! but then that orange guy was blocked by the pillars/gate if i were to check him out i'd have to remain stationary cuz cont walking would only make me walk past him with the pillars in between of us. Just then, God helped me ;) A woman pushing a trollley or smt like that cut into my path and i had to stop in my track.

And then, APPLE'S FACE APPEARED!! I WANTED TO STARE!!

All these while i was focusing on the 3 bengs, and i already made eye contact with the red hair guy i was scared it would be obvious if i STARED at apple. and also due to the close proximity, i only looked at him for a split second. IVE GOT TO KEEP ON WALKING NOW THAT THERE'S NO ONE OBSTRUCTING MY PATHWAY RIGHT?! WHERE ARE ALL THOSE "RUDE" PPL WHEN I NEED THEM?! and he was walking too, so unless i run backwards, we've already walked past each other.  lol, jking abt "rude" =P

And just then, Chelsie called. obviously the first thing i screamed was, "I SAW APPLE!! I SAW APPLE!! AHHH!!!! HAHAHAAHA!!! I SAW APPLE!!" And then i saw the 2 girls laughing madly in front of me while still searching for me. They obviously followed him there. ( to look for me too =P)

So throughout the day, out converation revolved ard apple. And you guys know i wanna apple for a job at etude house right ( dunno if they want me though =X), when we were talking abt apple, i looked up, saw the etude house at tamp and said, " i want to work here." ya. but apple will nvr walk into etude house.

Then later part of the day, we went zhiying's house to do some stuff for joyce. And since it's near simpang, we decided to go there for dinner/supper too! =P ok, the real reason was, apple and his gang frequent there. How do i know? Zhiying saw them quite a few times. Once, she even saw apple when she was alone. This girl always has such luck huh. but then ive seen apple quite a few times in and near church. herh~ =/ i can rmb the incidences damn vividly k! from clothes to the events! i gotta admit, it's mostly due to the fact that i tell EVERYONE all the happenings so it sorta got stuck in my head. =X

So in the end, we saw neither of them. well, it'd would be too miraculous if i were to see him TWICE in a day.

Anw, i wanna share a wonderful beautiful story that zhiying fabricated for me. ( it must have hurt her, yes i know)

i was saying, if i were to see apple on the day of my wedding, i'd be shocked, stunned, and even not marry =P

and then, zhiying fabricated an advanced one for me =P heehee.. im so shy to talk abt this =P

SHE SAID ( not me, SHE) there'll be 2 ballrooms side by side, i holding my wedding in one, while his in the other. Then when we see each other, we.. ............ahem.................... run away together w/o saying anything!

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. IM SO SHY AND EMBARRASSED TO EVEN BLOG ABT THIS LAH!!!!!!!!!! OMG IM BLUSHING.

disclaimer: apple, if any chances you're reading this ( which is 0.00000001%), it's just a JOKE. dont be creeped out!!!!! >.<

anw, im gg to nex tomorrow/later with the girls for some sort of a farewell lunch for joyce. Since it's at Serangoon, which is on a purple line, which is where apple lives at, they're saying that we might have a chance seeing him since chelsie and zhiying are my lucky charms -___- i'll see if you guys work tomorrow! and after that, im meeting xiaoli and huiyi at partyworld!! so i'll be at nex the whole day.

oh, ive a pic to end my post.

me in the sauna room. As quoted by zhiying, " fairy in the clouds". Or by chelsie's mum, "ghost."

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today marks the day of me losing something valuable. my iphone4!!

i was at bugis parco ajisen with my girls pris and kyara. Since i was on diet, i didnt eat and was using my phone all the while. Then we left for J.Co's yoghurt. After that, we went to a few shops and within 20 mins we found ourselves at bugis street. I got a clutch for prom, and minutes later, i realised i couldnt find my phone. K immediately called my phone, but nobody picked up. K then immediately went to that clutch shop, while we waited for her elsewhere. Then we went on separate ways to J.Co, Ajisen and m)phosis to looked for my phone. Just then pris tried calling my phone, and it was switched off. We started to panic. Checked with the staffs at the stores, and they said they found nth. K went to the nearby m1 shop to ask if they could track my phone.

kyara: can you track a lost phone?..............*blah blah blah*

promoter: wait, can you slow down? you're terrifying me.

anw, the conclusion was, they could do nth to track the phone. so, we went back to ajisen and made a police report there. in like 30 mins, 2 policemen came. One tall Indian guy and a slightly shorter chinese. when i saw the indian p. i was like wow.. then back to being emo.

police : can you tell us what happened?

kyara : we lost the phone...

Indian : you all lost your phones?

kyara : nono.. she lost her phone

police : what happened?

kyara : ...... she was holding on to her doughnuts and the phone was already not on her hands......

chinese: *gives out a laugh*

kyara : very funny isit?

chinese: *quiet*

police: how sure are you that you left it at ajisen?

kyara : very sure.

police : but you went to J.Co to check and even got the contact card for us

kyara : just a precautionary measure

police : so you're not very sure

kyara : *pissed* it was just in case...

Indian p. was on the phone after that.

Kyara : can you track the phone?

Indian : *on the phone*.. no.

Kyara : WHY!

Indian : *excused himself*

Chinese : *explains*

*discussion*

police : how sure are you that it's not lost elsewhere?

me : i was holding on to some stuffs with my both hands so i was quite sure my phone wasnt with me already.

police : holding what?

me : ice cream...

everyone : laughing secretly

kyara : we went to blah blah blah and realised the phone's missing

chinese : an hr later...

kyara : nope! 20 mins later.

chinese : *doubtful face*

kyara : in case you want to know, we took photos along the way so we know the time

chinese : *wanna-surrender-to-kyara expression*

Chinese : ok i confirm with you the no. (forgot what's that) ...***H*************

Pris : HUH? how come got alphabet?

Indian : HUH? *shocked*

Chinese : opps! it's 4

girls and policemen: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

me : ... *knocks kyara's head, trying very hard not to laugh* (kyara was laughing damn loudly to get back at the chinese p.)

after that i said thank you to the chinese, and then to the indian, and he forced a smile at me. ( they must be scared of my fierce and unmerciful friends. haha)

we left, and they started talking abt the policemen, esp the chinese one.

me : ive to say something. The Indian's quite cute. mature and man. He seems more capable of finding my phone.

girls : *burst out laughing* .. the chinese has a higher ranking than him ( come to think of it, they even scrutinsed their name tags/badges. EH. YOU GIRLS CHECKING OUT WHAT HUH?)

****************in june, pris lost her whole bag at a doughnut shop at sentosa. her parents brought her to the police station to make a report.

pris : i left my bag with a friend while i went to buy doughnuts

police : *snides* can even lose your stuff buying doughnuts

a while later...

pris's mum : woa. the policeman's quite gd looking.

pris : MUM! IM HERE TO MAKE A POLICE REPORT!

...

pris : Dad did you see the policeman just now?

P's dad : Oh! That gd looking one ah?

pris: ....

*****************************back to topic

after i said the Indian policeman's cute,

pris : ohno!! you should see that policeman who helped me!

Kyara : HAHAHAHAHAHAA. you girls!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha. end of jokes. anw, becuz i lost my phone, i had no music on the way home. so i prayed and did some thinking abt my future. and ive always knew that ive no ambition. i seriously have no idea what i wanna do in the future. Like, anything also can. oh, i do have one ambition. to be a mother and housewife. and then, ive been watching the korean version of 'it started with a kiss', whereby the girl chose the course that allows her to aid her husband. ie, nursing while her husband studies medicine to be a doctor. and oh, eversince the incident, i find policemen cool and righteous. so mature, man and cute. and i was thinking, what if i become a policewoman? not bad huh!! hmm.. sometimes i think im dependent on others. i'd like to study what others study. dont like to be too independent. isnt it cool to work with your husband? well, i dont rly know actually. God please tell me my calling.

will update on prom soon~

<3

dearie, im sooo sorry to have forgotten your birthday!! so sorry not being able to be the first to wish you on your birthday! i could have forgotten for a good one year if not that you reminded me. you know i love you the most right!! this is the 13th year we've know each other! i know im a lucky girl to have you by my side eversince i have memory. i still remember the days our families went on vacation to genting, not once but twice! we've witnessed ourselves changing from little girls with plaits to girls in heels. every new year only makes me realise how important you are in my life.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

&

I LOVE YOU! <3

first vacation together at Genting~

year 2004~ sec1? hahah. how nerdy we looked back then.

guzheng performance~ 3 years ago?

Genting trip 2008 j1 =)

i love you bff!!!

you're a star in my life! i believe we'll be together having picnics with our children 10 years down the road. dont worry, i'll prepare vegetarian food for you!

i just want you to know, you're very much treasured and appreciated! there are times when i look back and im glad that i have you =) those plans that we had, i still look forward to it =)

im such a letdown to have completely forgotten my princess anneliese birthday. i promise i'll make up for it.

With lotsa <3

Selina

the following are adapted from a book by whom i cant rmb.

these are questions often pondered by non-christians.

Qn 1. How do you prove the existence of God?

Qn 2. Who created God?

Qn 3. How can i believe in God if i cant see him?

Qn 1.  How do you prove the existence of God?

a. Creation proves the existence of God

The bible says, " in the beginning God created the heavens and the earth " (Genesis 1:1) At the same time, he is clearly revealed to all mankind through His Word, calling them to return to him and embrace his great love. We know full well that the universe is created with wisdom, careful thought and order. It is a magnificient masterpiece. Like an apartment carefully designed by architects and engineers, although you do not see them now in the apartment, you will not deny it is designed and bulit by SOMEONE. Afterall, a heap of materials will not assemble themselves automatically into a maginificient buliding. The question is, how can a vast and marvellous universe come into existence spontaneously? Doesnt its existence manifests the greatness of its Creator? Scientists have discovered that the entire universe operates according to orderly principles. We ought to be amazed by the wonder and greatness of the Creator.

Science does not create. It discovers. Everything operates in accordance with natural laws. The more discoveries humans make, the more willing they are to hunbly acknowledge their limitations and insignificance. According to some statistics, more than 90% of the top scientists in history are Christians. They include Newton and Einstein. Even Darwin, the proponent of the theory of evolution, was converted to Christianity later in life. Furthermore, all 3 astronauts who were the first men to land on moon were Christians. A few years ago, there three famous scientists who successfully broke the code of human DNA. One of them was not a believer than, but as he made major breakthroughs in his understanding of the human body, he beame very amazed by the Lord of life. Eventually, he believed in Jesus and became a fervent Christian.

Einstein once said,

" The infinite and transcendent God has revealed his existence through small things that even our feeble and limited minds could understand. I am fully in awe of this. It has certainly shaped my faith. Deep in my heart, I believe in a transcendent intelligence that is manifested in this incredible universe. It shapes my beliefs about God.

Darwin also said,

"I acknowledge that primitive life owes its existence to the Creator. If there is no ultimate first cause, it is impossible for the universe to exist. Darwin had the following experience. He had previously encountered some tribal people on an island. He thought it would take more than 2000 years for them to evolve into civilised people. However, the tribal people were greatly transformed upon believing in Jesus; they even learned to read the bible. Darwin was very moved by this, and he purchased many bibles to give away to tribal people throughout the world in the hope that they would repent and turn to God.

Perhaps some might ask, " Didnt the universe come into being as a result of the Big Bang?" But just think about this: if matter did not exist in the first place, how did the Big Bang happen? Futhermore, explosions generally create chaos as opposed to order.

Others might say, " The universe owes its existence to Nature; i believe it came from nature"  But, they cant explain where "Nature" comes from.

b. The Human Spirit proves the existence of  God

God has created three kinds of life: plants, animals and human beings; the highest of which is human life. Plants have merely a bodily existence. Animals have a physical body, some functions of a soul but no spirit. Only humans are  created in the image and likeness of God; they are beings with body, soul and spirit. The soul includes functions such as emotion, will and mind that direct their lifes.

Human beings, who are created by God, have a spirit that allows them to have contact with the spiritual realm. That is why religions exist wherever humans exist, whereas religion does not exist in the animal kingdom at all. Humans can get in touch with spiritual matters because they have a spirit. Unfortunately, after humans sinned and fell, their spirits grew  dark. Yet, they still have the innate tendency to create numerous idols, with or without form, to fulfill their spiritual needs.

c. The existence of evil spirits proves the existence of God

In whatever places in the world inhabited by man, there are reports concerning people being possessed by demons. This indicates there is a spiritual realm beyond the physical world inhabited by people. However, when evil spirits hear the name of Jesus, they flee in terror. Victory in the name of Jesus is the experience and testimony of many Christians.

d. The experience of Christians prove the existence of God

Throughout the world, there are countless Christians of different races, nationalities, colour and social status who have personally experienced the love and salvation of the real  Lord Jesus. Many have experienced the freedom from the bondage of sin, deliverance form all kinds of hardship, and the joy and the peace in Lord Jesus when persecuted. The number of those who believe in Jesus has increased throughout history, because they have personally experienced the real and living Lord. This is a fact without dispute. Isnt this strong evidence of the existence of the real and living God?

Qn 2. Who Created God?

If God had needed someone to create Him, He is not qualified to be called "God", for he is merely an idol made by human hands. The bible reveals to us: the creator, the one true God, is self-existent; He is the one who is the beginning and the end from eternity to eternity. Most physicists today believe it is impossible for the physical world to come into being out of nothing. They attribute the existence of the world to the 'eternal first cause'. Undoubtly, this 'first cause' is the God who created the universe, the unique and soverign Lord. That is why a majority of famous scientists have come to know the Almighty creator through His wonderful universe.

Qn 3. How can i believe in God if i cannot see Him?

First, you have to understand, just because something is not visible to the human eyes does not mean it does not exist. For example, you cannot see wind or air but you cant deny their existence. When God created our bodies, He assigned different functions to different parts; the five senses are for making contact with the physical world, but the spirit within is for knowing God. In other words, we cannot know God by using our physical eyes.

Second, the reason we cannot see God is because humanity has sinned and gone far away from God. Just imagine: when people with sinful hearts and deeds experience encounters with evil spirits, they are often paralysed with fear. What if they see the holy and righteous God face to face? Would they not lose their lives? When the holy and righteous God appears, He shall judge the sins of all humanity who can stand before him? There is only one way: believe in Jesus and receive the forgiveness of sins. Only then can we know and accept God the Creator and thereby live in his presence. That is why so many people  who have believed in Jesus have personally experienced and can testify to Jesus as the real and living God, who lives in them moment by moment.

qns to be answered another time:

1. Why did God create the fruit from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, which caused Adam and Eve to sin?

2. Why did God create the universe and mankind?

3. God created humanity yet He allowed them to sin; then He came just to save some of these people. Isnt He trying to make things difficult for humanity?

4. Why didnt God show compassion to everyone so that they can all go to heaven?

2 months ago, i had a spiritual attack. i started to question abt the world before heaven and earth were created.  It's the devil's deception to turn me away from God. but now im renewed in the presence of God. and guess what, no more falling asleep during services! and i love it that my godma and pa have been attending services with me without fail for a month while nephew goes for Sunday school. i never expected my relatives to attend church with me. thanks God for that! =D i would love to bring anyone to church! or you can ask me anything abt Christianity =)

my testimony ( old blog post click to enter)

<3

realised i havent been blogging for a month. was busy studying i think. eh no. busy counting down to exam in the hope of motivating myself to study. well, i was motivated to study and countdown instead. i mean, motivation w/o action. and that = selina the all time big procastinator, including size. hahaha! throughout this whole month i was deluding myself that this time it'll be different. i'll be prepared for exam. in actual fact, i was preparing to study for the first 2 weeks but ended up doing dunno what. ohyes, preparation. which i seriously, dunno what i did. then 2weeks down the road, i realised IT'S 2 MORE WEEKS TO SA! seelah. wanted to start a month before in the end it's only 2 weeks later. and what do you get for studying 2 weeks earlier? you forget everything the day before exam. so you rush through every topic again within the few hours you had planned to relax before embracing the war. but still...

i cant wait to get back my results because

1. although screwed up, i still hope i pass all because i'd studied harder than all the other tests. in other words, i want to see if more efforts do make a difference

2. One fine night, i cried to the Lord. how things screwed up when it wasnt in the plan. i know He heard me. im not saying i want to see what he'll do to my results. rather, i know he works in mysterious ways and i want to be opened up to the possibilities.

Sometimes, isnt it amazing to see God's work in disasters and failures?

3. I really want to know my results. Be it good or bad. there has to be a final closure? a conclusion? after all it's something i'd put my heart and soul in.

FAITH IS SOMETHING YOU CAN NEITHER SEE NOR HEAR. IT'S BY HEART.

not feeling good. eyes are itchy, rashes all over my back. feel fat! and i look like a pig in photos. super round face. now im tired, and ive nothing to do. like, what should i do? and ive lost touch with school work although it's only been a short 4 days. sometimes i'd think i'd be better off w/o 2holidays. seriously, tomorrow i got to sort out all my reading logs, do my de tutorial and organics tutorial.  that's it, im not stepping out of the house tomorrow i think? no more dressing ups and stuffs. not in the mood for all these. better settle all my school work, do some revision, watch xiayixhanxingfu with nice spicy jellyfish. im itching all over now. mum says it's because of drinking. got semi drunk for 2 consecutive days. and my burps still smell like wine now. disgusting. and, if you still do not know, im weighing 57plus now. like i dont even know how i gained back all the weight i lost. and the thing is, i think i look slimmer, which contradicts my weight gain. the heels which used to be loose are fitting for me now. feet grew bigger? weird. seriously, i looked like a pig in many cny photos. face round and big like basketball. hate it to the max =( but i lost weight in other parts of body?  i feel so weird now. like what happened to me? gained weight? or lost weight but gained water? or lost weight in the body but gained on face? my eyes are in pain due to the scratching. what a good cny. but thanks God for tomorrow to do things right.

and oh, godma is baptising in my church after cny=) i see salvation in my family, like finally. the first christian in teh 2nd generation ( im the 3rd gen.) and guess what, we're baptising together!! so im still deciding on a baptism name to put on my ic. but it should be something abt wisdom. btw, selina means heavenly or moon! which explains my moon liked face -__- sad. and you know, sadelle means princess. put selina and sadelle together and you get heavenly princess, or moon princess! a big NO to the second one man! representative of the moon faced clan man >.<

ARRG. i better stop scratching!!!

enjoy your cny peeps! while i cry myself to work tomorrow.

" no matter how far 2 hearts are, the love received is never forgotten, and reignites at any point, any moment. "

this is what ive learnt. so many good friends, but when two hearts seem to stay apart, it doesnt mean it's lost; it's a new familiar friendship to begin with. it will always be there till a heart changes and decides to bury all the past. once a true friend, forever a true friend. it's whether you know how to grasp it or not. you cant lose a lose friend worthy to be called so.

hard to keep in touch with all friends, and the once close doesnt seem to be close anymore. but my dear friends, i am still me, the one you used to spend time with. so one day you realise we've drifted apart, just a text and we'll be back to how we used to be. perhaps, before you think of me, my text is already waiting at your doorstep. true friends may come and go, but never gone.

i love you my friends! every single one of you whom ive not spoken for ages, for you are still on my true friends list.

im super tired and busy lately. so much work to catch up and not enough sleep.but i foresee that i'll study lots tonight =) wanted to go out tonight, but then i thought, why not study? haha! so guai.

so many stuffs to update.

my relatives are staying with us for a month before they move into their new home. it has been great! and i love my cute cousins, esp Lucas =) he's soo cute! whenever i help him with his schoolwork, he'll sayang my head and say ' so clever! ' or, in the morning or at night, after he wakes up or going to sleep, he'll walk into my room, and i'll say ' give me a hug!' and he'll hug me! or sometimes, when i play tap tap with him, he'll say ' you're so cute!' and sayang me again. haha! and that time when we spent some time talking about God and shared my testimonies, he was so attentive! really smart and cute boy.

and one night, while doing work in the living room, he appeared like this...

SOO CUTE RIGHT!! SPONGE BOB! HAHAAH!!!

his sister, sherilyn sleeps with me. a sweet and pretty girl =)

the first night they moved in, we spent like an hour chatting before gg to slp. i felt like ive a younger sis!

she's so pretty right! only sec 3!

hmmm... what's next... ZHIYING! haha

realised for the past week ive been mixing with her quite a lot, compared to the rest of the girls. she can be really funny at times =) just that at times, i feel like saying sorry to her... cause i felt that ive offended her. HAHAHA! jk lah.. ^^

she gave me this weeks ago, and i love it!!

if you cant infer, im that pig-supposedly panda and no.. she's not saying im skinny. saw that question mark? hahah!! this created  lots of jokes and kept me real happy that day.

me : zhiying says im a skinny pig! ^^

zhiying : question mark.

me :  -____-

and she kept emphasizing it's skinny question mark pig. so the 'skinny' is a question but the pig is a fact. HAHAHA. how much more funny could she be.

i kept that in my pencil box, and it's now in my notebook! i love my glittered stationery, but i love this pig even more ^^

oh. and we finally went to ajisen together! like after we craved for it for sooo long. she wanted corn ramen, while i wanted kimchi ramen. in the end, they're not available. haiz.

if you want to see her face, wait. i know zy you must be feeling uneasy now ^^ who ask me to be a skinny question mark pig?? ^^

we ate similar stuffs that day! and even the next day, we had milkcurd together! the school's selling milkcurd from chompchomp. delicious!

haha. anyway, i was kidding lah. im not that bad to post zhiying's face here w/o her knowing it right! see how much i love you! ;)

when we both got our milkcurds, we took out our phones. haha!! why have i become this? must be because of you! haha.

few days ago, she borrowed my phone. moments later, it rang.

she very funny hor!!! changed her name to apple darling and called me -__- HAHAHA!

2 days ago, she told me apple looked in her direction when they walked past each other to spite me -__- and i was thinking, you only look back at the person who has walked away when you like him right!!! and then i was like, OMG! HE LIKES YOU!!!!! >.<  

haha. and i tweeted:

(read from the bottom last pic)

HAHA. now that you have read my tweets, i think ive lots of explanation to do.

FIRSTLY, that point of time, only apple was my eyecandy (ohmy, i realise, apple of my eye. haha! ) that pe teacher incident happened when my friend told me there's this new pe teacher in a tight shirt ( she meant muscular. haha!!!) then when we were talking and walking to the cafe in school, that teacher walked in our direction, and she asked him if he was taking our class the next day. they say very cute what! and somemore ive never seen him before, so i practically stared at him to see how cute he was. that's all!!! but then, he shifted his glance from my friend to me and saw me staring at him. so malu.

SECONDLY, I EYECANDY APPLE NO MORE. hhaa! not because of zhiying lah. but that day i just eyecandy him no more loh.

THRIDLY, i made a fool of myself in front of the pe teacher. during lesson that day, he was marking our attendanace, and kept smiling. i tell you, he looks like taylor lautner from twilight! cute right! and my classmates sort of assumed i like him. maybe partially true? then when he called my name, i heard laughters. one even commented " wah. selina, first time you think your name is so nice right?" then he did self intro, and he said he's called daniel. one of my classamate's called daniel also mah! so i laughed! AND ONLY ME!!! gosh. he must be thinking  ' that's the girl who stared at me yesterday. she likes me, i see' ohmy. but i tell you, he's rly cute. know what happened? we were supposed to run 3km that day ( but i feigned illness ). rachel ky ran for a little while, where she was just one street away from the school ( the school was in sight where she stopped running )

rachel : i got cramps

he : then how?

rachel : i want to go back to the school.

he : you know how to go back not? dont get lost

THE SCHOOL WAS SO NEAR. HAHAHAHAH!

and when i saw her back in school just minutes after they had started running, i was like " why are you here? where's the teacher?! " and the whole lot who was on mc bursted out laughing. then one said " you only care abt the teacher. care about rachel mah! " and so i replied, " i did ask her why she's here. and see, she's not dead ."

HAHAHAH. i tell you all a secret... she likes him too!! HAHHA. she's the one who "purposely" asked him if he's taking over our class. HAHA!

casue you know we're in diiferent pe classes on tue, that teacher took over her class that day. when the lesson ended,

he : this is my second class, but the first class of the day. i had an enjoyable time.

random girl shouted : this is also the best pe lesson of my life =)

HAHAHAHAH. if only i were there man. funny lah!! HAHA.

ohya. on that day when they were running 3km, serene and pascalle ran past this little boy who was kicking the cans on the floor i think? then pascalle asked him to throw them into the bins. then this teacher commented " your friend? " moments later, they saw the women with super loose baggy top which was a bit revealing, and gave the horrified look while running. then the teacher commented again, " your friend? " hahaha!!!!! see how lame he was?! or is it flirty? like he knows that all the girls find him cute? hmm. anw, he left yesterday. pretty sad ah, but the good thing is i never ever have to see him again. imagine he rmbs me as the girl who likes him. gosh.

ohya. another thing to clarrify. as you've read all my explanations, im NOT A FLOWER EATER (invented by serene) HAHA! as in, im not that kind of person who likes every cute guy i see. get it???

random photo

the wind blew when i took the picture, not that i deliberately swayed or what.  looks as if im some salsa dancer? hahahah!

cocoa tree came to our school again!! chelsie's and my loot of the day

basically the bottom 4 are mine.. hee~ all gone in one day! expect that dark chocolate which was near tasteless. yuck >.<

few days ago, me, chelsie, serene and rachel ky went tampines 1! for what i forgot. haha. anw.. see who's there!

liang wen ying! super cute voice and looks! =)

anw, while we were walking away when she's done singing, this not slim girl 3 meters away exclaimed loud enough for me to hear, " she's fat! " ohmy. i so feel like shouting, ' eh! this very slim girl says you're fat! " perhaps she's not slim enough for a celebrity, but she's selling her voice and face, not body. and why must she be skinny. she looks great enough!

2 weeks ago, abibi broke her litlle finger while playing netball or what. it was dislocated, and severely fractured. she looked like she was in great pain. and all we could do was to keep her in prayer. she's so great you know! she even told me to blog abt this cause all things happen for a reason.

you may see very gory pics of her finger. so scroll down if you're scared.

OUCH! so painful right!!!

one more to go

she's in the recovery stage now

one thing for sure, all things happen for a reason.

" And what more Jesus died on the cross for us, palms pierced, feet pierced, sides of body pierced, worn a crown of thorns, whipped with hooks.. "

"  God's really good these days.
Maybe it's normal for wounds to heal in two weeks' time, but you have no idea how happy I am that my wound's healing pretty fast!! "

- abibi

no matter what happens, stay strong in your faith like how abibi's coping =)

she's doing fine now. she'll be amazed how she writes now.with the use of like only 2 fingers?

btw, that my hw she's copying! HAHA. i told her that im gonna tell the world that the model student is actually sopying my hw! haha! ohya. that few days, i disappeared from twitter. maymay asked if i was doign fine =) then on mon, zhiying asked if  i was ok.

zhiying : you got do srjc paper?

selina : ya, of course lah!

zhiying : ( shocked face ) wah! what happened to you??

selina : nothing! just a paper only what! *proud + wink *

haha! i did teh paper cause the teacher say those who didnt do will be sent out of class. i scared!! hahahaha!

gonna end this post with a pic of cute serene having breakfast with me together this morning before econs!

firstly, nothing's actually wrong. just that im over reacting. too sensitive, too unsatisfied with myself. really, nothing's wrong.

talk abt diet. i saw myself slimming down and losing weight. which is good. esp during the first week of school, i kept losing weigbht everyday, which i assume, is more of losing water. super enthu abt sch work, although super unproductive at teh same time. at least, time was spent studying every single day and moment. everyday after i woke up with 4 hrs of slp, i never failed to lose a few hundred grams of water/fats. i was satisfied with myself. diet, studies ( to some extent), friends, family, everything was too good to be true. that's how much i love that first week - minus the essays i had to rush out everyday.

then the second week, diet resumed, but it was no longer the same. no longer waking up to find myself lighter each day. no longer finding myself wanting to tolerate 12 hrs without food before i sleep. and no longer wanting to avoid switching on the com and tv. perhaps this week, compared to last year, was quite displined to some extent. but that's not what i wanted. everything's just wrong.

i didnt study for chem ionic test, math ( partially). for math and econs, could say that i did study, but not enough. didnt even touch some topics. felt really stupid for not remembering how to do the qns which were exactly the same as what i did few days ago. so was super stubborn and hung on at those qn. and then my sweetest rachel ky whispered to me to skip the qns. i did, but got the steps messed up. just a big HAIZ.

had fish & co. for dinner yesterday with parents. initailly insisted on not eating, but i thought, i should just eat with my parents. and hence, a big piece of fish and fries at 6 plus. i havent had dinner for soo long. and i obviously wasnt hungry.

today, another fish & co. meal with ex-classmates. and i kept eating, cause i was always hungry. ever since dinner yesterday. was feeling low today for whatever reasons, and got myself a choco sundae as comfort food. got home, requested for a bowl of shark fins soup my mum cooked. wasnt hungry. but another comfort food i guess. then at night, made myself some instant jellyfish and a packet of sweet drink. although the total calorie intake isnt high, but it's wrong. like what's wrong with me? i usually drink water and coke light instead and avoided the sweet drinks cause i always thought it's extra calories. but then this week, i had ribena in school almost everyday. aiya, nth of a big deal.

now, im feeling soo bloated. arrg. would rather go hungry. luckily ive learnt my lesson these 2 days. i ought to wake up tomorrow. counted myself lucky this time round. cause in teh past, esp after successful diets, i tend to binge, eating more than i usually do. then i'll realise the weight gained, and thus, start the whole diet thing again. and therefore, my weight nvr goes lower than 54kg. thus, my friends who only see me once in a while always ask why am i always on diet but i actually looked fatter than before.

tomorrow, a sunday, i'll lead my life afresh. no dinner, less tv and com. study every single day.and bake cakes when im free instead of watching tv.

im such a procrastinator, and i hate it. havent been gg for dental appointments for months! all because of teh stupid reasons, i dont have time, i need to study, inconvenient. and then the m1 bill. i need to call them to weave off teh gprs charges, plus removing that service. and then my gz. seriously, i do not want to give it up. but i havent been gg for society practices on sun and fri. and the deposits which i need to get back too. why am i so inefficient.

and i realise because i dont know what i should do, i tend to follow my friends. like, they're studying, and i'll be thinking,hey! i need to study! then when they're eating, i'll be thinking, hey! i need to eat a bit too! then when they're not doing work and enjoying themselves, i'll be thinking, hey! it's okay that im not studying, cause it's only normal. like seriously, i need to have my own mind.

shall blog about how im gg to live life from tomorrow onwards after i get back home tomorrow. sorry for the rants guys.

( wanted to blog abt something happier but i cant upload photos. arrg)

you'll see a new me when school reopens. doing things i really want to and living my life right. i hope.

the day will be better after a good night sleep and a prayer.

teaching at sunday school brings me to another haven.

Selina inc.

New release! in all cinemas

a sequel to blockbluster, Monster inc.

HAHAHA. anw, that's my eye!!! so happy!! haha! stretched open my eyes like crazy. lashes are curled in the morning. and it last till you bathe!

permed at fast east plaza 3 weeks ago, in a shop with hello kitty stickers pasted on the walls. cause my lashes are too short, i permed for 1.5 hr, instead of the half an hr session. but still, not curled, but at least lashes are not pointing down anymore.

this works man!! ard 22 bucks at sasa. 2nd week im using, and i already see results!! girls go buy go buy!! =)

shot by chelsie:

haha. so happy with the photos that i forced everyone to look at it. haha!

went studying with abibi and chelsie on sat from 12 to 7 at t2 mac. didnt do much. saw pascalle there. opps, and daryl and xc too. haha! like some s12 secret syndicate. haha!

you know how abibi eats her cup corn? corn with sugar! so weird lah! gonna try that someday. haha!

have been making my own breakfast every night so i can feed my 12hrs deprived stomach early in the morning.

my tantalising version of bandito's pocket! ^^ which i call it,   SELINA'S POCKET!

ingredients: one whole tomato, lots of veggies ( which my girls call grass), small piece of chicken, and chilli sauce.

NICE!!

had some problems with my iphone bill/plan. cause apparently, im not using the line which was meant for the iphone, and bill amounted to 300 plus. all because of the internet service which i thot was wifi all along. so apparently, the applications i logged on  signed me onto the net. arrg. my parents including me almost got heart attack. luckily we went to inquire at m1 and the person told us abt the current bill. and it's not the end of month yet. so can anyone tell me when am i using wifi and when am i not? my dad told me his friend's bill amounted to 800plus. mad man!!!  bet dad's regreting getting iphone for me =( so sorry lah!!!!

anyway, we got stuck at teh gantry when entering carpark. something wrong with the card reader. then the cars behind were honking. pressed the help button, and the officer said he got someone to come over. waited for like a few mins, no one came. and the honks. so paiseh!!! bet the drivers must be fuming. like nth you can do, and the drivers dont understand. then moments later, this guy from the 3rd car behind us came over to help us. then he got my dad to insert the card into the machine beside. and it worked!!! so malu!!! anw, what i was tryign to say is.. he's sooo cute!!! HAHAHAHAH. not that kind of handsome or super cute guy, but very apple-ish. HAHAH. like how apple would look like 10 years down the road. he was in polo tee and bermudas, with short and neat hair. super cute voice ( i dont mean like the eh~ eh~ teacher). cute as in.. cute accent. HAHA! furthermore, he 'saved' us. liek ahero. HAHA. I MUST BE MAD. forget it.

anw, went out for ice cream and shopping with chelsie on fri after school. she saw this photo with apple in a particular top, while i saw him wearing that outside school before. super dashing man.  then when we enter a particular shop, we 2 were like " OMG!! THIS LOOKS LIKE APPLE'S SHIRT!" hahaha!!! then we went into another shop, and saw a kid's version of a similar shirt, and we 2 were like " FOR APPLE'S SON!!!" HAHAHAH!! we 2 are like mad already lah. so cute lah! if he and his future son wear this out together. SUPER DUPER CUTE MAN!! haha. im paranoid. so im not listing the shops names and shirt designs. incase others know it ^^

anw.. that guy.. super cute. HAHAH!

enough harpping on it. i need to study!! how i wish everyday is school day man. so much fun! studying and doing work with friends. totally dont mind gg home at 6 everyday. LOVE MY CLASS!! <3

once again, thanks God <3  ^^

i was supposed to start studying now, but ive the urge to blog abt these few days. one of the happiest moments in my life i would say. LOVE, JOY, BLESSINGS, WARMTH, everything was felt. indeed, i saw God's power during these times when i was supposed to be very stressed out.

haha. and i was made a joke. or should i say, jokeS.

#1

yesterday as i was entering econs class, i heard a male voice calling ,'' selina... selina... selina..'' faintly. then i stood in my tracks. like i couldnt think about what was happening. dunno why my brain stopped functioning. then there was this group of boys beside me. then the voice kinda sounded like one of them. like what i said, my brained like stopped functioning, and all i know was to look at them. but the image was blur. i seriously didnt know what i was doing or supposed to do. so i just stood there in the middle of the classroom and felt real blur. i kept on staring at those guys' blurred images, and i realised one or two of them looked up, like '' why are you staring at us''. then they looked down. i realised it wasnt them. but i just contionued staring. the voice kept going on throughout the time. i felt hypnotised. then suddenly, the voice got near, but still as hypnotising. then i turned back, and there, I SAW RUSSELL HOLDING HIS ECONS WS (im econs rep) standing right behind me. his face was like '' are you okay?'' plus a bit of am-chioing. that moment, I WOKE UP. and i was shocked by what happened to me. i felt silly and stupid too. but believe me, that 'hypnotised' state was truely scary. like you lost control over your soul. and you know it.

and just, i told my abibi abt the incident, that's her reply

selina : you know yesterday...( blah~)

looks like i made a fool of myself .

#2

today, in Gp class, david was sitting right opp me. so i was facing him. then the teacher asked russell to answer a qn. but i was day dreaming ( hypnotised state again). i heard a guy's voice talking. and you know im short sighted but i dont wear specs, sometimes a bit slow, and a little hearing problem. then suddenly the class bursted out laughing. and i dunno what happened, but i just laughed with them. really laughed. ALL THE WHILE I THOUGHT DAVID WAS ANSWERING THE QUESTION. then, I LOOKED AT DAVID AND LAUGHED!!! not just for a split second. i dont even know what i was laughing about!!! in the hypnotised state again!! then my vision became clearer, and i realised david wasnt speaking at all while the male  voice continued!!! and then i realised it was russell speaking -__-

p.s. i dont mean russell's voice's hypnotising or what. -_____-  just that i've that mode in me. suay that he spoke just when my body was saving energy. haha!

#3

well, me and zhiying were made the joke this time round. HAHA. this is stupid. after the last lesson, which was math, we came out of the classroom, and a gust of super strong wind blew at us. then zy began doing the getting-blown-away stunt. seeing her do that, i need to prove im light enough to be blown away too. so i followed her. an exaggerated version. we were enjoying ourselves so much. then zy told me, that guy in red crumpler bag in front of us turned to look at us!! HAHAH. then when we were walking out of school, that guy appeared again. did not recognise him. but his RED CRUMPLER BAG. HAHAH.

talk abt love.

abibi. do you love me?? HAHAHAAHAH. she's my sister in christ, together with maymay. so much to talk abt! haha. when i walked into class, the math teacher already grouped them according to results. then, i was still looking for my seat. there, i saw abibi looking at me sweetly.

selina : do i sit here?

abibi : we're grouped together. good right?? ^^

omy. i feel love. HAHAHA. I LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT!! you are nice and everthing good.

i guess it's because my girls wont say this to me. instead, they will say " i so suay!!!!! " HAHAHAHA. sometimes you have to say what you really feel.get it girls? ^^ hhaha!

anw, when i got home and started tweeting, abibi's words came to my mind. so impactful. like i suddenly felt God's works. abibi is already a blessing to me from God, and her words are like God's promises to me. christians will get what i say. someone to walk with me by the Lord and studies (maymay you are a blessing too ^^ ) i feel God was with me thruout this supposed 'difficult' time, and he has nvr forsaken me.

since monday till now, ive nvr slpet for more than 5 hrs daily. wake up at 5.30, reach sch by 7.30, leave sch by 6, reach home by 8, prepare next day's breakfast and bathe by 9, do hw till 1 plus am. then go back to slp and start teh routin all over again. 4 hrs of slp was nvr enough for me. deep down, i was always praying, let the 4 hrs have an 8hrs effect. the tons of essay nearly got me go bonkers. my fault for not doing them during holidays, and thus i got to finish them within days. phy geo alone has 16 sub essay qn, with 4 data response. not to mention human geog essays and other tutorials i was supposed to prepare. surprisingly, i finished phy and human geo in a day each. on wed, i stayed in school alone to do phy heog essay from 2 to 6.30. then went home with seren. got home at 8.30, started doing work again by 10 till 1plus. i thought i was physically and mentally drained. especially when that's the 3rd day of torment. but somehow, i had the energy to go on. that's God's strength. and now, ask me slp or work. i'll say work. cause im empowered by God.

today when i got back home, i was suddenly overwhelmed by happiness! like all the happy things flashed across my mind. so touched that i felt like crying. esp abt abibi's words. i felt God. and then, my dad was at home when i got back at ard 7 before he left for work at 7.30. the past few days, due to my studies, i only see him for less than 5 min a day, that is if i got home before 7.30. and i didnt see him at all yesterday. felt sorry for my parents. felt that i should do something for them. i think i wrote more than 5tweets at one go, expressing my happiness and joy i felt. can read them at teh left bottom column.

so many blessings. GOD I CAN VOUCH THAT YOU LOVE ME ALOT ALOT.

seriously, what have i done to receive soo much from God??

well, it was a happy one =) up till now, i like all my teachers! not too strict nor slack! seriously should be rushing hw now, but i think i better blog to schedule my days!

had a class cell session this morning =) a gd start! haha.

my timetable.. lucky or not i dunno. 2 days ending at 5pm! but many breaks -.-

ive highlighted all my breaks! haha.

plan of the first day at school! well, dont think i'll be able to finish those tonight =( but ive 4 hrs of break tomorrow! will try =)

guess which mugger is this. HAHA.

ya, it's the first day of school, and i already have plans to mug! haha. but well, study session with abibi and friends was a failure today. but it's okay! we have 5 days a week in school! haha.

from now on, im gonna carefully plan out my diet and study schedule daily on my cute pink notebook! =) not more than 2 meals a day i hope, and if im having sweet treats i'll have very very little of main dish. today, i packed a super delicilous and low calorie sandwich to school. that was my breakfast at 7.30am. at 11am, i had 2 veggies and pepper fish with very little rice. at 5, i had few mouthfuls of plain porridge with some bittergourd and 3 small pieces of curry chicken, and topped it off with choco sundae! happy diet today. but i'll try to reduce my food intake tomorrow. still a little too much.

shall pack a sandwich as breakfast to eat after pe ( height and weight!!! =X ) then perhaps another smaller sandwich to eat at 3pm. shall continue to mug after i got home till 9pm and then sleep!

I AM SUPER HAPPY TODAY =) friends say i lost weight. esp when the words came out from zhiying. sounds so true. HAHA. not implying other meaning =X

haha!! sometimes compliments just seem too good to be true. ohmy. it must be because of teh people whom i mixed with who contributed to my low self-esteem. you know who you guys are. HAHA! JOKING LAH!! love you guys alot a lot ^^

gonna do my reading logs now. i seriously wonder what will i watch after xiayizhanxinfu and haipaitianxin are over! currently these are the only 2 shows im watching.

STUDY STUDY STUDY! and of course not forgetting God too ^^ you gave me everything^^

went to wilson's farewell party today! was super duper extremely happy when xinwei greeted me with ' you slimmed down! ',' you lost so much weight! ' haha!! i only lost 1.5 actually.. but still very very happy!! ^^

at 11 plus, i realised there's no more bus services back home. so i went to a nearby free hotel ^^ my sis's hse lah!! haha!

hahaa! stupid enough? was teasing and disturbing her with this hairstyle. haha!

really love her a lot a lot! thanks girl for being there and providing a shelter for me. HAHA.

woke up this morning and decided what to eat together. haha. we're on diet you see ^^

my pretty sis~

i dont like this picture. i look like a luohan fish. but my eyes are HUGE! hahaahaha

her mirror makes wonders. looks slimmer! hahahaha

went shopping for sch stuffs before i went back home

iphone camera is real lousy!! =(

guess what show im watching? haha! haipaitianxin! seriously, this show made it possible for girls to like geeks. haha!

soo excited for school! but i havent finish the hw =( pray for a good headstart! ^^ thanks God for abibi, maymay and sis =) and also everone around me =)

met up with krystie and regina today. ya, again! haha. wanted to watch movie, but nth interesting =(

oh, before that, we went marche for dinner. it's a super duper cool place! you have to at least go there once in your lifetime to see it for yourself!

but sadly, im still on diet =( so i have to endure my friends eating chicken and crepes =(

see! that's the dessert stall! cool right! so you can imagine how other stalls look like. they're all cooked right in front of you. looked kinda like an english-style wet market. lots of raw meat on display for meat stall. not much garnishing. like you buy a piece of chicken, and all you get on your plate is a piece of cooked chicken with a small bowl of gravy.

this is what you see above while climbing down the stairs to the restaurant.

looks like me. but that's regina. haha. staircase and elevator.

tell me ive lost weight!

ok. this is the 2nd time im retyping this post cause the window closed due to internet error and i didnt save the post    -_______-

KRYSTIE CAME BACK! =)

havent meet up with the girls for a long long time esp since kry went aust to study =(

of course, one of the places we had to go was.... KBOX! haha!

KRYSTIE!!! my long lost love. HAHA.

i look like a freaking scary puppet! =X

SHAOLE!

ok.. some proof that we're indeed in kbox. hahah.

after that.. we went.... SHOPPING!!!

i was trying on this pair of really high heels. got it! super nice and cheap! but my mum got a shock when she saw it. haha!

was in a rush when we took this. ppl were waiting for us to be done. hence the quality.

OUTING WITH YUHAN =)

at jack's place

CHRISTMAS EVE!

with sis =)

haha. end of major camwhoring.

ANOTHER OUTING WITH KRYSTIE AGAIN! =)

went bugis. did lots of shopping! even bought similar pumps. haha!

had lunch at this jap rest at illuma

mistaken it to be a cosplay themed rest. disappointed. haha.

mine is a non-fried version. haha

haha. i tend to be twittering much more than blogging! any friends who're on twitter too? tell me k! ^^ haha.

btw, im on diet AGAIN! yes, again! haha! living mainly on a serving of cereals per day, and some diet drinks ( detoxify i think )

lost 1.5kg so far, 56kg now. i still have 2 more kg to lose to sch reopen compared to the starting of last year.

yes, one of the new year resolution, is to keep losing weight!

and i got to finish my hw soon. haiz..

bye!

im NOT a bad girl. or someone who loves clubbing. but it's seriously addiction man. thanks God for protection! =)

we were queueing up to get in

inside homeclub...

then i saw a message from my sis joyce at 4+

she was at socialhouse with her friends and bf.

and so we went over to find her! =)

haha. i suspect this photo has been photoshopped =X looks slimmer here. HAHAAH

anw, now i know why clubbing is bad. and why non-christians love it.  cause you practically forget abt everything! all you know is to have fun and dance the night away. and it's pure addiction. like when we got out of the place and preparing to go for breakfast, we were like shall we come again tonight? it's like something we have to do! and that night after i woke up, i looked at the clock. the last bus is ard 12am. should i go??? luckily i didnt. and the lucky thing is that i talked to God the whole night when i was clubbing, asking for protection and stuffs. so i got off the addiction faster than my friends. so by the 2nd day, i wasnt that excited abt clubbing already. but every now and then, if any friend asks me to go clubbing, i'll be like sure! but i havent go. then now, i suddenly feel like clubbing is really NOT my type. getting into that kind of 'on-drug' mood isnt smt i really enjoy. i've God! why do i need clubbing, or rather, alcohol to forget troubles. not that ive any. perhaps the thing i really liked is to dance to the blasting music. cause it's fun! just that alone =) to me, not gg clubbing doesnt matter a bit to me at all. perhpas i'll only consider clubbing when i want to have a good time playing and dancing with my dear gfs =)  haha. how come i feel that ive described clubbing as a healthy and bonding activity ? =X haha!

a new year is like a new chance to live life right! =)

so inspired by abibi's blog. yeah, got to get closer to God than ever.

2009 RESOLUTION

1. finish my tutorials assigned on that day itself

2.  practise guzheng an hour per week ( that's if i can retake grade 8 this year =( )

3. sleep by 9.30pm and awake by 6am

4. do one j1 math and chem  paper every week

5. eat cereal every morning and pack sandwich to school

6. meet up with graduated/poly friends occassionally

7. try gg out on weekdays and study on weekends

8. make class cell alive! haha

9. pass every test

10. blog very very often. reaching adulthood soon! gotta take note of my precious teenhood! =( )

11. invite friends for stayover occasionally! =)

12. wash the dishes at sink every morning =)

13. whip up dinner for family and friends occasionally =)

14. KEEP LOSING WEIGHT!!!

15. quiet time everyday =)

what could possibly be worse than putting on weight before prom!!!!! rmb that 300 kcal diet? it worked! and then suddenly i wasnt obsessed abt weight anymore, and started eating 'everything under the sun'. HAHA. prom photos were horrible. all my friends were pretty! ^^ and there you see a pig in pink amongst them -__- for pig-style photos, view them in my fb before i untag them.

see! all black!!

with dear huiyi! as you can see, we both wore our fav colour! hers- purple ^^

a bit awkward =x

JIASUI!! when are we gg for our annual sakae buffet competition again? last year i lost to you and jieling, this year lost to you but jl, next year im gonna take both of you down! MUHAHA!  you 2 skinnies shouldnt win!!!

we had our makeup done together at my house! we were so kanchiong when the clock strucked 6 when we initially had so much time to prepare! but sure fun!! asif we're getting married. COOL! hahahah

my fav. cause can only see half of my face! haahhaha

haha. you know i was so sad when i saw teh prom photos, i blamed myself for outting on weight just before prom...

until...

3 days later...

i went out with cousin joyce! and we went for bangs! and and we took photos again! and and and.. i finally knew i was living in self delusion. i was as fat all teh while -___-

slimmer right!!! just 3 days after prom w/o being on diet -__- i realised how important camera angles are.

we became so conscious of our new hairstyles that we wonder if anyone find us weird! and a few people even mistaken us as sisters! hahaha.

and then we were talking abt it ( the whole image thing )  while queuing up for chewy juniors. then this mad guy ( i assume) walked past us, and said " liang3 ge4 mei2 nv3" ( means 2 pretties) i didnt know abt this. my cousin told me. then when we looked back, he was still looking! and then guess what i said to her. " LUCKILY HE SAID 2 ! or else i would have killed him!!!! " MUHAHAHAHA. but we sure felt better abt our hair after that. HAHAHA.

haha. anw, next time i shall only take photos with the camera slightly inclined!  hahahaha

im starting to do my hw now. gotta rush!! i seriously dont mind mugging like pre-promo! dont wanna regret later. the thing is, i lost some worksheets! arrg!!

so excited to see myself gg to school soon! with ( i hope) 1. slimmer body 2. completed homework 3. completed tutorials 4. revision of past topics! YAY!! and ohya. 5. less sliding eyes when i smile. how im gg to do that i dont know. cant wear lashes to school anyway ( it helps).

ohya. and thanks for all the comments on my hair ah. next time i need attention i just have to cut bob or shave it bald. haha! ( know why i laugh? ^^)

i know im a lucky girl/ pig. little emo stuffs in my life, and i dont blog to rmb them. haha! holiday's here! a new start for me. gotta study, study and study! after my gz exams i mean. haha. i missed my last gz lesson today. die.

so much spare time ever since promo ended. which meant more time to spend with the ppl whom ive neglected!

met up with my dearest cousin joyce for her brithday 'celebration'. she's like a lovely big sister to me. my bro doesnt listen to me. how i wish i could have another sibling! a little boy or girl to pinch their chubby cheeks all day and feed them with mac happy meals, sweets, and chocolates! or a big bro or sis to love, listen to or consult ! haha. but ive my pretty blood-related joyce! lucky ^^

i went to her house to look for her! and she fed me with delicious brownies when we both were on diet. -__- haha.

HAHA.

wow. even the side view is pretty. haha.

you know we had this telepathy? i bought big crystals studded heart-shapped earrings for her, and she got herself a crystals studded charm bracelet for her birthday! like such a coincidence! then i was craving for subway that day, then when we were talking abt food, she suggested subway for dinner since she was craving for it. HAHAH. told you. we're blood-related. ^^

HAHA. i looked as if i popped out form the back.

then she brought me to my aunty's hse which was just somewhere ard. first time there! met my cousin dennis and nephew brian. cute little boys ^^ 

wore heels that day. blisters all over my feet =( then my aunty pasted like 10 plasters on my feet! touched >.<  before leaving, she examined us and praised that we've both slimmed down a little. so happy! the funny thing was this. joyce wore this scarf to hide the v-neck. then my aunty was like, im very open! it's okay! but hor, maybe it's nicer if you pull your hair to cover the v-neck. HAHAHA. SO CUTE.

then, we went to ps!! bought lots of stuffs from daiso! and my first pair lower lower fake lashes. HAH!

on the mrt~

you're my friend if you can see that im really awkward. HAHAH.

went out with my baby sandra and friends for ice cream the other day!

island creamery! ^^

my baby is soo cute!! and when she calls me mummy... AWWW.... ;)

at clark quay~ we really need to go bk whooper bar soon!! ^^

my dad making a mini christmas tree lamp cover from scratch!

result...

SO PRO!!!!! btw, i suggested fixing the reindeers on the gate ^^

AND FINALLY... yihui came to my house to stayover yesterday!!! mad happy!!! ^^ we had so much to talk and laughed about. a little sorry to her. well, i had parent meeting and counselling session yesterday, and had to push back the meeting time to 3.45! wanted to go orchard early =( btw, mrs sze was great. haha. she kept saying things like, i know you're a very supportive mother, so you'll support her whatever her decisions are. haha! if my mum isnt supportive initially, she'll sorta be 'forced' or 'brainwash' to support me. HAHA.

yihui was really great! she was feeling terribly sick but still agreed to meet me! then we went to my house and have spinach pizza! super delicious! then i changed, and went to orchard! we had fun roaming along the streets at night, and shopping! girls talk ^^

got home late, and made supper by ourselves!

mushroom soup with loads of mushrooms and pasta! and a piece of brownie to share ^^ then we talked again ^^

hit the sheets at 4? then woke up at 11plus to find her walking out of the bathroom washed. super like holiday! then we went to yishun to have breakfast! then came back again to slack. HAHA.

well, that's the ONLY pic we took. haha!

my new nails! price? our sweat! haha. i did the left, and she did the right! love you dear! ^^ gonna miss you!

my dinner..

realised there's no more cup noodles. luckily i kept one in the room. HAHAHAH. added cheese! yum!

im sooo excited!! gg kbok with my friends tomorrow! like finally!! ^^

alright gotta go prac gz now. haiz.

well, here i am, to write this post about my wonderful God who kept by his promises to me.

yes, i got ADVANCED! with no conditions i think. although im not officially promoted, but im joining my class for Alvls next year! my results were not fastastic, but they surprised me. short of one mark for chem and 2 marks for math, but 46 and above for the rest although still under 50. first time passing my econs and gp overall i guess ^^ well, this miracle isnt the first time.

remembered months before i was still considering whether i should go for tuition, since i should give my all for promo. but i didnt want my parents to spend that kind of money. so i prayed, that i will rely on God's strength and wisdom, for who is greater than God!

i was talkign to God throughout all my papers. stuffs like, God i need more time, God i need your wisdom. it's this wonderful relationship i have with God that gave me peace and assurance.  i was mumbling verses like, 'seek and you shall find ' and 'God is with me'.

they are God's words. i did my best,did my revision, i asked and prayed to God, and i believed i will find. I FOUND.

during the gp paper, i rmb i was left with a mere 5 mins to finish the aq. asked God for help. and ideas just rushed into my head. didnt rly had to think. i scribbled and scribbled, and it was sort of done in like 5 mins, although i could have done better by elaborating on another stand.

God works in mysterious ways. of course, there are times i'll wonder whether jc's God's plan for me, but i know he has plans to prosper us and not to harm us. i did not appeal to other jcs when i first got into tpjc. then i got retained. everything wasnt what i had planned or expected. i was a little ambitious and wanted the best that im was able to achieve. i'd wonder would i get promoted this time now? if not, why put me here in the place only to produce nothing. because of this, i believed that God will see me through, but i also told myself that even if i ever had to leave tpjc, i shall not doubt God's plan, for " trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding "

and now, as this year's ending, i finally see why God put me in this class. i love this class a lot. especially my christian classmates whom we supported each other throughout the promo period. class cell is a cool thing that ive never thought could happen in any class i was in. reminding each other of God's words, and sharing his works on us, was definitely cool. and then my wonderful classmates. nice ppl who made me look forward to gg to school everyday! except boring lectures which i fell asleep in. HAHAH. btw, i love my ex-classmates too! they're really nice and fun ppl too! it's a right choice to be in this school, seriously.

as mentioned, i witnessed many of God's work on my life, especially in education.

when i was in sec 2/3, i almost retained. cause i failed ALL. well, i can only say i was a christian who doesnt go to church ever since sec 1. then throughout sec 3 and 4, ive never passed any of the exams before. so it was F9 all the way for all subs. then my prelim result was 27 even after heavy moderation? at that point of time, even before prelims, i was thinking that maybe i'll get into ite. since poly is like quite impossible for me to get in too. real depressed. during that time, either before or after prelim, i heard God's calling. that i need to get back to church. i felt the urge to. but i had guzheng lesson on sun at that time. and i thought quitting guzheng may not be a gd idea. so i prayed for obstacles to be removed, and true enough the very next day, my friend sms me that lesson time had changed to right after church service! then i prayed again, tellign God that i need someone to bring me back to church, and then the very next day again, i met my church-pri sch friend at my hse bus stop, and she wanted to bring me back to church! so the next day, which was a sunday, i was back in church! back in my cell group which i left a long time ago.

then did my revision for olvl, just wanting to trust God. i still remember that on that day when results were released, i felt at peace and calmed. not nervous at all. true enough, God blessed me, i got a 15! and 4 bonus points! which means 11 to get into jc! and then an A for geo which ive supposedly never passed before! from 27 to 15 was simply amazing.

same for my PSLE too. from a 200 plus borderline in prelim to 244 and 2 bonus pt was another God's work.

by faith, ive come thus far. miracles and God's answer do not come overnight. you'll slowly see it. if you believe in it.

afterall, ive waited for 2 years to see some hope in my olvl, and 2 years to get promoted.

remember, He has plans to prosper you and not to harm you. dont be disheartened by a failure, cause you're achieving greater things in the future.

yesterday was the most aniticipated day for me. but then, something's just wrong.. even till now it's still wrong, and im confused.

so yesterday, i woke up, with NO excitement at all. then, i felt OBLIGED to follow my plan. i took out all the food, and started eating.

i practically finished the pizza. no satisfaction or what. just a weird feeling.

then i embarked on the next mission. only managed to finish part of it.

these were my fav.. but...

well.. i dont know what happened.. but i forced down 3 slices of cakes.

a really weird feeling.. i felt i didnt have to follow my plan. i didnt have to eat. since i dont feel like it.

at evening i met up with ann and pearlyn for dinner.

yes.. like what i had planned

yep.. finished it. but the damn meat was tough! unlike what i had imagined or rather, eaten before. even the cook is trying to piss me off. should have gone for steamboat instead *wink wink.  haha. joking lah.

we had icecream too! but i wasnt happy.

we went to catch THIS IS IT! nice!!!! was neither a fan nor a hater of his. but now, i love him. his personality, humour, talent, laughter, character, everything about him is nice. in real life, he's the kind of person i'll rly fall in love with. kiddish yet matured. when requesting to lower the volume of the ear monitor, he says, " i know it's for my own good, but im trying to get used to the volume. is it possible to lower the volume? " i was wowed. a big star being humble to everyone. he says stuff like " haha. he teased me." kiddishly. so CUTE! a thought struck me abt how ppl commented abt his looks. if you think it's horrible, what abt the owner of it? although i admit i was scared by it before. he reminds me of hyun goong. that type of character. ohmy. haha. when i was watching how he interacted with the crew, i couldnt help but keep exclaiming his charm and cuteness to ann! haha. such a nice guy.

i was so sorry that my dad had to pick us up from marina. casue it was already 12. the movie took longer than expected. he'd to work the next day. i was deeply guilty and sorry. this will be the last time. i hope so. i know im blessed. utterly blessed.

supper prepared by mum~

i know what's missing. kbox. i miss kbox very very much.

guzheng is driving me crazy. all the stress. lesson tomorrow.hope i wont be a disappointment again.

i promise there'll be nothing abt for a period of time. till im over it.

YAY! today, me and my parents went to shop for food, food and food! i wanted cake, and woodlands' causeway point actually has so many bakeries! in the end, i bought this...

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my best buy of the day!! HAHAHA. you'll be mine baby tomorrow~

from left to right, half a honey chicken, timtam double coat =p , nongshin up noodle, nutella, cadbury tiramisu, chips, quail eggs, slice of chocolate, pandan and durian fudge cake each, strawberry cake =p , slice of chocolate cake, and donuts!! wow! all my cravings =x and my fish and chicken nuggets and pizza safely kept in the fridge!!

my mum was with me while i was choosing teh cakes. she said " are you taking revenge on cakes? " MUHAHAHA. so funny.

good night babies~

i learnt to cook curry from my mum! tasty~

such a fulfilling day! practised guzheng. thanks God for the productive practice and passion! i was hooked onto gz and practised for like more than 2 hrs, before i realised it was at night. didnt feel like stopping though. hadnt feel the passion liek this for a long long time. less than 3 weeks and it's exam!! rly want to do well. shall continue tomorrow!

and oh! ann, pearlyn and javier are comign to my hse for overnight! my parents are preparing supper for us! yes!!! excited! and we're gg to catch a movie plus dinner at cafe cartel! my pork ribs~

had a rly good time with my parents today. and yesterday i chatted with mum abt God for like 4 hrs?? haha. the couple was blasting music and drinking. i thought we had a party or disco in the house -__-  eh. couple as in my parents.

some photos i took last sat with bf ann! haha. we were quarrelling who should be the girl, and yes, i won! short hair should be guy what!

HAHA. our signature pose.

this is our reflection from a christmas ball decoration!

good night! =)

wow! its been the 3rd day. 2 more days to go! its been weird that my body has adapted to not having real food. my mom asked wont i feel hungry at all? i realised no. maybe a little, but i wont feel like eating. CHEERS!

a sequel to the cake nightmare. yesterday, me and my parents went out for supper - steamboat. i drank soya bean milk, which was actually my second meal of the day. then they forced me to eat vegetables, tofu and mushrooms. of course, i had some from the tom yam base. today, i was awaken by stomachache! i even had diarroea in church! NEVER break your promise to yourself. it'll haunt you!! and now, my parents are inviting me to snacks and wine. think i'll accept? THINK AGAIN. maybe i will. HAHAHA. no lah.

ohya. many commented on my facial expressions on those photos taken in the fitting room. HAIZ. they said i looked awkward. YES. i really was. so damn weird taking photo in the fitting room!! so they suggested not taking the head. WHY DIDNT I THINK OF THAT? HAHA

today at sunday school, i covered my first duty! to lead them in colouring and end the closing prayer. not very well done of course, but thanks God for the courage! haha. when i talked, not many paid attention to me. a teacher said ive to be louder. so i intend to OI!!! super loudly suddenly in front of the little kids before i start speaking. i can already imagine the poor little kids jerking in the mist of playing. HAHAHA. 

and then for the closing prayer, they were supposed to repeat after me. but i didnt know their memory span is a maximum of 3 words! i said up till 7 words or more? so the voices died down after repeating the first 3 words. HAHAHA. damn cute lah!! im having another duty next sun! hope i'll do better ^^ praise God!

alright. start to plan my holly wednesday!!

im meeting ann and clique for dinner, supper and movie on wed! cafe cartel! YES. i can finally eat my favourite louis pork ribs! YUMYUM

for supper, i dunno what im going to eat, but i guess macdonald? mc spicy or big mac! MUHAHAHA. and obviously, some ice creams! oh, and not forgetting popcorns, chips and chocolate during movie! MUHOHOHO~

OKAY, im going to sleep early on tue night, so that i'll be able to wake up early to start my feast! as early as 6am? cause my wonderful mum said she'll prepare curry chicken before she goes to work for my holly wednesday after requested by me. so i'll have piping hot curry chicken awaiting me by 6am! WAHAHAHAH~ but obviously, i'll take mainly skinless chicken and lesser gravy. trying to be healthy at the same time!!

then, i'll prepare western breakfast by myself. overloaded cheese ommelette slurp~ sausages and bacon! maybe i'll skip the bacon. too fatty. then, i'll have pizza! there's this brand of frozen pizza which is super delicious! esp the spinach one! highly recommended by me. my record was finishing the whole pizza.6-8 slices. but i wont force myself to finish this time round. just enjoy!! 

i love meat. any type of meat. esp beef!! i'll grill packets of beef, chicken and pork with a little butter and ground pepper. healthy at the same time! its hard to be vegetarian for a consecutive 5 days! oh, i also miss caifan - rice with chinese side dishes. esp rice with steamed egg, guluyok (sweet and sour pork), xiajiangji ( fried chicken or pork with lotsa fats!). TASTY TO THE MAX! but i dont think i'll be able to have these on that day =(  and theyre super oily!! im salivating now =(

AND, how can i ever miss out on these... cakes and ice cream with waffles!! i'll get a cake, and indulge as much as i want!

AND, timtam! and chocolates!!! a piece of timtam has 100 cal. but who cares on that day =)

if im waking up at 6, and meeting ann and clique at 6, i'll have 12 hours to eat? woa, spicy food right in the morning, plus the rate i'll be eating, confirm get diarroea the next day. good or not? at least they'll all come out right. hahaha

im typing and thinking abt all kinds of food while im feeling hungry now!

gosh. think i'll have to wear a super lose shirt on that day. dont wanna look like a pregnant woman. haha.

im so feeling like going to swensen's! their ice cream and cakes buffet! the next eating day is teh following tuesday! see, ive got it calculated. HAHA. but there's school. if there's bad news on that day, maybe i wont feel like eating =( but if its gd news, then.. visit xiao bin bin  ( steamboat i mean) plus swensens buffet! maybe i should go with my parents. then i dont have to pay! hahaha. or maybe, to save money, i'll ask my mum to prepare steamboat at home, with lotsa meat, and i go for swensens buffet with my friends after school! haha. kays.. shouldnt plan that far. will be damn disappointed if it doenst come true =(

DONT WANNA GO ON.. 2 MORE DAYS SEEM LIKE FOREVER TO ME NOW.

oh!! i gave bff yihui a surprise visit to her house today! brought bubble tea, cake and a card. mainly to root for her alvl! haha. her mum asked if its my wedding invitation card. and i said yes. HAHAHAHA. her parents got a shock. we spent half an hour talking before i left. 12 years of friendship, wow. haha. missing you babe! ^^ and we may be going to kitty lab together! sounds fun!

ok.. im gg to rot at home for another 2 days before i wake up to find myself in heaven. BYE!

 ive set up a tag board at the side all by myself!! haha. wasnt too difficult after all^^

chelsie and i went to school to give our girls a surprise!! eh.. i dont mean our daughters. thanks.

it was so fun meeting them! haven seen them for ages.

surprised them with donuts!

look at the happy girls ^^

i was supposed to be on diet that day, but there were 2 leftovers, so me and chelsie each took one. I REALLY DID REJECTED THE DELICIOUS DOUGHNUT! but haiz.. chelsie coaxed me into eating. i can never forget the taste of the creamy chocolate in my mouth. yummy!

so btw, my diet plan is this. diet for 5 days, which mean ard 300 cal per day which only consists of salad, milk or soyabean milk ( 3 servings per day), and then FEAST on the 6th day. i just eat anything i want! but blot away the oil and reduce consumption of carbs like rice. it seems to be working for me.

yesterday, was the 1st day of the interval, which means i shouldnt be eating! but chelsie was out to ruin my plan. ARRG. you'll know why.

so after that, me and chelsie went to fast east plaza! mainly to get our nails done.

chelsie's

mine..

a bad experience! firstly, they dun have the colours i want, then in teh midst of it, they tell me theres an addition surcharge of 10 bucks cause im using diff colours, which in the first place, clarification was made to assure that its the usual price. wanted light pastel colours initially ( candy colours), but now i look like a witch. and on the train, i was grabbing my crystals-partially-fallen-off phone, and the aunties and some random ppl were staring at my hand. haiz.

something which really makes me excited!! next wed, is the day when i can eat! im gg to eat all teh food that i see, provided they are not fried.

throughout the time at fast east, chelsie kept talking to me abt food. asking me to make the 7th day ( which was that day ) a feasting day! poor me, i really weavered at the thought of it! esp when i savoured fish and chips and chicken chop the day before! but i said no! haha. then i watched her savouring her mouth watering duck noodles. i only drank soya bean milk!

after guzheng when i reached home at ard 11.30pm, i saw a thick slice of mango cake on the table. w/o hestitating, i just finish it in the kitchen!! i didnt even put up a struggle!  and then, the nightmare came. i slept till 2? i kept having dreams of me savouring pieces of cake with thick layers of cream! i kept waking up to assure myself that it was only a dream, and that my diet plan wasnt spoilt ! haiz. i learnt my lesson. but the weird thing is, if u put a slice of cake in front of me now,  i'll still be tempted to eat!

alright, going to practise guzheng now. meeting bf ann at 6! woos!!